Me being petulant

I know I'm being petulant and silly, but it really annoys me that I was the person who came up with the idea for a WISE council in the first place and this year they've started turning people out of certain meetings if they aren't on the executive board. It also annoys me that I ran for the executive board and lost, but being asked to leave makes me feel like I'm on a lower level than the rest of them. And having Erin as the secretary doesn't help, not that she can do anything about it. Maybe I'm too prideful and conceited, but I would almost rather not be involved at all then be excluded from parts of it. And then I wonder if Pam and I lost because we ran together, and add that to the list of things that my attempt to study abroad messed up, or if it was just a popularity contest and we lost. Which annoys me further because I had hoped to leave that stupidity behind at some point in my life, seeing as how it has kept me from numerous councils and boards in the past.

And I smashed my finger in the cupboard last night. It is a nice shade of purple with red and white blotches. I've taken remedy four times now, and it's starting to improve now. I don't know if I didn't choose the right remedy or if it didn't work the way that I thought it would. At least I can ram it into stuff now without screaming and cussing.

Erin says the board got yelled at. I take some small pleasure in knowing that I have not reached the point of vindictiveness where that would make me feel better.